BLOWN (retitled)

i cant help
but to be and continue to become
the woman
God intended me to be
i have no control of mine
or your
destiny
yet i feel compelled
to feel a certain way
about certain people
if i respect u
i show you
if i admire u
i show you
if i love you
i show you
even if you dont
care, wish, desire
to see
it hurts.
its a blessing
and a curse.